Even if he has justified his actions in his own twisted mind. He is obviously aware he will get picked up and taken to jail sometime within the next year due to any number of possible situations. I had a buddy a few years back who ran afoul of the law. He said he actually felt releaved after the marshals knocked on his door at 5:00 am and took him in. The waiting was killing him. Everyknock on the door, noise of traffic on his street ,just driving his car and seeing a police car made him extremely nervous. He said he spent a lot of time just looking out the window. WAITING for what he knew was coming!