Yes, listened to it today. I don't do podcasts much as a rule, but any time I listen to Nate's it's great. Had the pleasure of meeting him at Expo this year, so I could look the man who trolled me during that Spooky presentation in the eye.
I really want to see the gameplay video, I'm really curious to see the game in action. As I said earlier, when Charlie and I first talked I was really going at it from the angle of "you need an autolauncher, you need a mode shot, you need this and that". And I probably came off like a dick, and we just didn't see eye to eye. Later Charlie admitted I had to some good points, and now I'm publicly saying that he was right too, and we need more randomness, more evil, and less fan flow flow flow.
Charlie, I apologize for speaking for you, but you told me once that this was your game, that you wanted to do it your way, and if you failed then you failed on the merits of your own ideas. I think I told you that I respected that, and if I didn't I'm telling you now, I respect that a lot.
I'm stubborn, and a control freak. I'm a pretty nice guy I think, and I try and not hold onto those attributes too strongly, but I'd be the first person to admit that they are there. And sometimes they're great things to guide you. And sometimes you gotta let go, listen to the people who want the best for you, and be willing to try things.
I mean no offense to Charlie. He's a legend in pinball already to me, who the hell else has done what he has? I feel the same way about Ben. AMH wasn't perfect, he knows it, but damn, he built a f—king pinball. That's amazing. I'd love to say I've done it, but I haven't even finished *helping* make one yet.
So when I speak about things here know that in some ways I'm speaking to myself. Pinside is a sounding board for me, writing out my thoughts helps me clarify them, and the feedback I get informs them. But I also just wanted to say to Charlie, look, people are loving what you did, and you're amazing. But I think there's a flaw that could use some attention, and if you were willing to hear that I think it would be in your best interests. You don't have to do it my way, or let me help you, or anything else (though I would), but just maybe hear me out, and be willing to try and make something you worked on so hard better.
I could write that in an email to him, but I don't think it would work. So I decided that being quiet about how I felt was doing no one any favors, and I wrote it out. You might be surprised how many people feel similarly, but didn't want to say anything.
I think I'm done with it, probably was a stupid idea. But I felt like trying, because otherwise I was just writing posts in my head, and I had to get it out.
If you didn't read this far I don't blame you, but I mean every word.