I never met Lyman, but I'll never forget seeing his unique playing style in Special When Lit, which got me interested in competitive pinball playing and also helped me be less self-conscious about having my own pinball stance.

This resonates. Thanks for sharing. I don't want to make this about me, but I experienced severe depression for 7 years. When you've felt so bad for so long, it's hard to imagine not feeling that way - you think you'll feel that way for your entire life.

I wish I could say there was an epiphany, or something profound that snapped me out of it but there wasn't anything, just one day I realized I no longer had the constant barrage of suicidal thoughts, dread of life, and intense anxiety and sadness. I was filled with an intense contentment that I had not felt in many years. I'm only sharing so that if anyone else may be reading, please have some hope that things can get better.

My condolences to Lyman's family and friends, and thank you to everyone else sharing their experiences on how depression and suicide effected you and your loved ones.