Quoted from wlf_:
I want the guy who is this demoralized in my group all day. If you're this jaded and whiny going in, you already lost before plunging a single ball. And I can't imagine you're having much fun, either.
You don't know the first thing about me, if that's your opinion. Jaded and whiny...yeah...sure. I'm jaded like all you people that can actually afford to go to stuff like Pinburgh and CAX and (insert any tournament you have to stay overnight for)...lol....jaded.....yep. We're all just so fancy here in Dallas, how can we not all be jaded, am I right?
I've managed to get to play against people like Colin (quite more than I'd like..I never win! I did have him down 3-0 in SCS that one year...that was satisfying, but he destroyed me on Tron, of all things..I was broken after that), Bob Matthews, and other very good people. I learn from losing, and watching tournaments. That's why I want to see other people in finals. I want to see what other unique skills people can bring to the table, that I can steal and capitalize on. Colin completely changed how I look at nudging early on, and probably doesn't even know he had that effect on me. Never going to see that AT Pinburgh, since I can't afford to go, best I can do is hope that a relative newcomer like Johannes gets all up in there. Will be interesting to see how Escher does this year.....assuming he got a ticket. Like anything you do over and over again, it's VERY easy to pigeonhole yourself into a specific mindset or way of playing, and there's ALWAYS someone else that's better to learn from. They just might not be famous yet. That's what I look for, and hope shows up on stream. There's one guy in particular, I don't know his name, but he's showed up to some of the bigger tournaments I've been to and ALWAYS done very well....he's not even IFPA ranked. He doesn't give a shit about the ranking system, and frankly...neither do I.
You are utterly clueless if you think you know me, and people making the assumption that I'm just full of shit and can't back it up....lol. Let's just say that arrogance about your own skills is only second to nerves in terms of causing tournament losses. I can't say I'm innocent there, and honestly, you're not NECESSARILY wrong that I was NOT enjoying it.... that's why I got out of playing in tournaments for a few years. But I'd like to start again, with a much less serious focus, and no fucks to give about IFPA points and chasing imaginary numbers. I've had quite a lot of fun at the last 5 or so I went to in the last year, just let all the anxiety and shit go in the wind, and if I sucked...I sucked that day. It made a huge difference. I'd still LIKE to go to Pinburgh at some point, regardless of who is there. And I expect that when I do, I'll be ready to deal with that. I couldn't say the same three years ago when I stopped.
So calm your tits.