Thank you for sharing.

When the darkness floods the mind there is no amount of “chin up” that can make it go away. I feel for you on so many of your points. I have found that the darkness does pass, so you need to pass the time until it does. When I feel my lowest I will busy myself with chores. Clean the garage. Mow the law. Clean out my email inbox. Clean the kitchen. I have found that the chores give my mind time to wander and eventually clear up a bit. The added bonus of a chore completed gives you a bit of a “win” and even the little wins are important.

Keep talking. Make grabbing a beer/coffee/meal with a friend/coworker/family member something you put on your schedule. I have been surprised by how many others need to just talk sometimes, too.

Don’t live in fear of losing your mind. You are aware it’s a possibility (I am pretty certain it is how I will someday go, too) so live each day well and take care of those around you. You just may need them to take care of you someday down the line.

Aaron
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