First thank you for the refreshing candid honesty
I used this as my own personal excuse for the first couple years. I do like some classic games from time to time. In the long run I desire deep rules that do not stale quickly.
I think it was more for me anyways that they felt so far out of reach that I would never own even one.
Persistence and work ethic are wondrous things .
Some people are the same way with EM machines. Seriously if it is truly your passion then embrace it. This will save you thousands upon thousands of dollars in the long run.
Have fun whatever you play
Life is short glad to see your finding enjoyment after all that is what it is all about.... Living.