Superbee... I feel for you and your family.
Our pets are like our kids. We had to put our sweet dog "Harley" down (14 years with us) 6 weeks ago. He was very special. I'm nearly 60, and cried like a baby for days. My wife is much stronger and she spent his last minutes with him and the vet.
Me, Harley and my sweet granddaughter reading books on the floor!