We all have stories and advice to give, and the OP and RGR may or may not want to hear all of that...but what he is asking for is support and motivation from us all. If we can drop over a hundred on a plastic monkey flapping his wings....what's a couple of bucks to help someone achieve their goal? I for one am willing to invest, just to see if it works out. Wish you the best....it is difficult, but with the right support, you can do anything.