Quoted from Otaku:I still want to invite you for a beer sometime and see if you change your mind. I have a terrible habit of typing too much, and have too much of a past here to relax and be who I am. Outside of Pinside things are great, and I'm pretty quiet. I'm so normal and the amount of hatred towards something people think I am, blows me away. I know you must wonder why we have mutual friends, and why the guys at T.N.T. and stuff hang out with me, it's like a jarring difference. I'm no Otaku. Even on their videos it's mostly comedic debaunchery, playing a role, and it's way too wound up for who I really am, when the camera shuts off it's different and we are all good friends.
Unfortunately a lot of me being 16 here was me doing modern ironic millenial humor in response to criticism which translated TERRIBLY especially with the age gap. Sarcasm is a lifestyle for my generation especially at that age, and it translates terribly on the internet. Turns out exaggerating points people pick out about you to mess with them, fucks your reputation up even more, but I was naive and an idiot. I was moreso playing the role of being the angry unhinged 16 year old, while I was fully calm and usually just passing time of being pretty ill. Kind of like the kids of today calling people boomers and shit. They don't actually care, it's just funny. Frankly I was enamored with the drama as the people on the other end egging me on were. Makes me wonder if any of us genuinely ever actually gave a shit. Weird...
If anybody was mean to me I screwed with 'em, like we all do.
I screwed with people who cared too much and it bit me in the ass when they took it seriously, but I meant very little of anything negative I said, so I sleep well at night. Mostly just screwing around. Any hobby passion and money-involved things were totally legit, I took a lot of things serious, just not Pinside debauchery. Mostly just trolled people like 1974DeltaQueen and they still think I meant it, and it somehow went so deep that several genuine apologies didn't work. It's weird.
Even the "look at me, I'm 16!" thing was more of a running joke between me and a few friends and used it on purpose long after it got old, because of how flustered it made some people.
Short version: I screwed with a bunch of angry older guys who thought I was stupid, by acting stupid, and it just made me look stupid. It was purposefully, and accidentally, stupid. I was mature enough to know I was screwing with people but not mature enough to realize that itself is a fucking dumb idea
Sell a machine or two if you need cash. You seem to be resistant to selling stuff, it isn't hard. I've sold machines to pay bills and it was a blessing when I had the cash in hand.