My Mom once said to me, "growing old isn't for the faint of heart". Man, was she right. In the last 5 years, I have lost my Dad to brain cancer, my mother in law to ovarian cancer. My wife is battling ovarian cancer (for the last 4 years), and I have a friend who is a recent brain cancer survivor. Most recently, a former coworker succumbed to lung cancer. He was my age - 55. Then it was Neil Peart last January, and now Eddie Van Halen.
To say "enough already", would be an understatement. Though I am grateful and thankful that I do not have cancer, I have nonetheless, been dealing with it, every day, for six years. At this point, with all of this cancer in my life, I should probably be a drunk, but I've actually almost stopped drinking altogether. It's just no fun anymore, and with Covid, I'd be drinking alone. My only coping mechanism, is music and pinball. Thank God for those two!
This is mostly a venting post. But, I am interested in hearing from others, who have a loved one who is battling cancer, and how they (you) deal with it day in and day out. I usually try and find a little time each day, to go out to my man-barn, and put on some ELO or Rush, or other kickass music and work on my pins. It clears my head, and for an hour or so, I can forget all about fucking cancer.
My wife is great and she is the kindest person I have ever known. That's the bitch of it - I'd take her place in a second if I could. She doesn't deserve this shit. But, I can't. So, I'll try and keep doing the next best thing - support her and be her rock. If you know about ovarian cancer, you know it's one of the worst ones out there. It's relentless, like wack-a-mole. All cancer sucks, though.
One thing cancer has done for me - it has reminded me to be thankful for every minute of every day that I have with her, as well as my family, and my own life. I guess that's why I no longer have any patience or tolerance for negative things, like politics - both sides, I can't stand them, as well as negative people. It's all wasted energy. No more.
So, to sum up: FU CANCER and live your days as humble and happy as you can.