well my dog of 13+ years died suddenly this morning. was hopping through the front room , right before i was about to leave and all of the sudden all four of his legs just kinda fell out from under him. then he couldnt get up. so i change my plans, take him directly to the vet, and we went to him walking a little, to barely breathing, then in about a minute or two completely gone. my kids were upset, my wife was upset, and i thought i was handling it well, but once i laid down to sleep, i cant sleep and got pretty emotional to myself. RIP to my main man Casper, your greatly missed!

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i was able to finally fall asleep about 430 am, but back up at 730 and still sucks. its a bummer for sure, i never imagined it would be this difficult for a dog. geez dude was older than 2 of my kids.

yes we had a cat and 2 other dogs, Casper was the "leader of the pack" they have been looking around for him quite a bit. It adds to the sadness

yes, we most certainly will. not sure when we will. the kids are still tore up, hell im still pretty tore up. we all are. not that it was all about money, but i spent over 500+ dollars trying to keep him alive in the last hours, just so all of our family could come see him one last time.

I just sold a Fish Tales today for 3k and i would honeslty with zero doubt give all that away if he was still here for a while longer. My entire family is shook up. hell even family friends came and visited and cried, he was the best boy of all time, and hes been part of our family and business so long. The pic i took of him in front of the fan, was him cooling off at one of our fireworks locations. I can tell its gonna be another long night. i didnt fall asleep until about 430 am last night and was awake at 7, then of course lost another hour to savings time.

Well I went to work today. So today is the very first day in the last 13 years my wife has been home without Casper. The kids have school. So I call her to check on her, see how she's doing. The answer is...... Not good. Not good at all

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One last pic of my good boy

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you know I go well throughout the day, and i think of things he would do, or his weird way of running, where his legs were kinda stiff and he would "tee-ter totter" for lack of a better word. thats how he ran when he was older. What literally gets me every time so far is driving home. when im on my way home, and i know hes not gonna be there , ive seen him almost every day for 13 years or so. Every day he blocks the damn gate, every day he barks at me like a maniac cause im a mailman, and only stops once he absolutely sees that its me. so on the way home, the closer i get to home, i just get and overwhelming feeling of grief knowing hes not gonna be here. then i tear up, that makes my wife tear up, then its a damn domino affect, i can tell everyone is feeling it, cause about a mile from the house, every car ride goes dead silent, no singing along to the radio, no chatter, hell not even the sound of kids fighting in the back. so i know everyone is feeling it.

well, my youngest pup is showing some real signs of depression. i never knew you were supposed to let them see and smell your dead pets. we had casper cremated and never brought him home. Ace the younger pup spends hours walking around the house, outside, all over looking for casper. its truly heartbreaking. now im like we need to get him another companion, but i also think its to damn soon.