That is a very real snapshot and it’s cool that you posted it.
Diet and exercise had a huge impact on my anxiety and OCD.
I had a pretty tough life at times and it impacted me with residual anxiety and a love or need for rituals that were consuming and probably not routed in reality or common sense but often felt necessary. All harmless but not practical.
It’s a very hard thing to overcome over the years but it can be done one of the best counter thoughts I learned to adapt was that these were just thoughts not reality. I never considered that in the moment once I did it was better perspective.
The difference between the two can be so much farther apart sometimes than we realize.
Anytime anything negative like this creeps into my thoughts be it morning noon or night I just shut it right down and redirect. I am in control of my thoughts not the other way around and that is just what is needed to overcome this long term. Some people may not ever experience this and others may never regain control but it can and does happen to many more of us than we realize.
Wishing you the best.